and a one legged man’s desire to dance

like a key trying to find its lost lock

and a white board’s yearning for a white chalk

Like a star’s search for moon on new moon night

and the untold things lost in a pointless fight

like a wrong letter trying to find the right address

and the new love’s passionate desire to undress.

Like a loser’s list of things he wanted to undo

and all those dreams which I wished were true.

All I wanted was to find myself again before I die,

love, my search ended when I looked into your eye!

She sat there pondering on a chair

About the failure of her recent affair

Her mind had not a word to draw

It was tough to admit, it was her flaw.

She is bemused, she is an escapee

She acts blind when he begs her to see

But her gifts, a cute teddy, a driver’s glove

Ask her what’s wrong, why can’t you love?

She has no answer, but just priorities

Love for her is too far from reality

Memories stay as long as you can remember

Keep them if you like or forget if you prefer.

She couldn’t stay calm, she owes an answer

She has to be forgotten like a silent prayer

But it is not so easy to answer a broken heart

Guile is what you need, you can’t just act smart.

She finally met him and put him at ease

And explained that she is not what he sees

He looked into her eyes with awe and fear

It was all over and there is nothing to repair.

He wished to hell and heaven that it was false

But he knew he was left with no choice.

When she can’t be the person he wants her to be

All he could do is forgive her and set her free.

Prayer.

Their souls aroused, hearts raced together.

Music.

He got lost in her hair, found in her eyes.

Passion.

He reached for her, she resisted.

War.

He gave up, she gave in.

Love!

I wish I could love
I wish you are with me now.

I go for a walk on a wonderful Sunday
I see couples hand in hand, happy and gay
I feel a vacuum between my stomach and heart
Nothing to fill the void, I am afraid even to start.

I wish I could love
But I really wonder how?

When I see beauty or read a wonderful poem
I compare it to your eyes and the beauty of your name.
I took to art; it’s the best form of expression
No words to explain my pain, there’s no inspiration.

I wish I could love
I’m not sure if I can now.

“Are you sure it is so human? Because, I never had one!
It is still hard to believe; is emotion a poem’s reason?”
He put his arm on my shoulder, and shook is head
“Poetry and emotions are beyond any reason” he said

“So can I still write poems?” I continued enquiring
“Impassive trees would be engulfed by spring
Skies pour as rain for the waves that do not rise”
“Poetry should come to you, listen to what your heart says”

I wondered “There is poetry in our heart beat?”
He said “and there’s music in our life if you like it!
For poetry or any art, life is the biggest stage
Look into you, the greatest artist would materialize”

Only to see the path that I took is on fire.

As the things that I wished I never done

Laughed at me and made me their fun

I stand here wishing they were untrue

But in life’s dictionary there is no ‘undo’.

I look into the future, nothing is clear

Hoping that, I would not turn back in fear.

May be I would be what I wanted to be

Or end up as just another fish in the sea

I stand here frightened to wish and hope

May be I am not too sure if I can cope.

When all I could look at is ‘now’

I don’t care to question, I don’t ask how.

I follow my heart, I follow my spirit

 I hunt each dream of mine and achieve it

Live for your dreams not for any morrow

Live the moment, and you would be your hero!

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When all I could look at is ‘now’

I don’t care to question, I don’t ask how.

I follow my heart, I follow my spirit

Do I really care to fear, damn it!

After all, the idea that there is no tomorrow

Brings the best in you and makes you a hero!

With ruthless audacity when I ferret
Success is my love and will my worship
If I fight, can I be defeated?

When each encounter on my road to life
Is punched in face with my fist called will
I succeed and I think I should.

My heart, it shouts out in agony
Why it has to realize pain in this way?

Do we really deserve it? You say
Is this really the price I have to pay?

You say “I am stronger than you and it’s easy for me”
it’s easy to say that girl, but its hell to be me.

Because, it’s you that I am defenseless against
And you hold the weapons that pierce through me.

You say I am rude, but if you see, it’s just not me,
Because, the whole episode is about you and me.

If punishment is the only way out you see,
I will take it all, Coz I can’t be what I have to be.

I will take it as an expression of love from you
Because, I hear what ever I shouted at you.

Let’s take back our words, and go back to blissful ignorance
And spare me this hell, and kill this deafening silence.

You are hurting me, I know, and it’s on my name.
But, as I said, I would love to take all the blame.

Now, when I look back and see what did I gain?
Its nothing but these odes of pain, sheer pain.

The tree was big and the shade was good,
I looked here and there, I needed some food.
I found something to munch, and as I did
Screech was the sound; I turned and I saw a hood.

The hood belonged to a jeep
I guess it’s used to carry sheep.
Four men came out and gave me a peep
They tied me up and put me in the jeep.

After a bumpy ride the jeep came to a stop
I was near a tall building and I jumped out with a hop
I was not happy, I mowed and wanted to mop
I was pulled into a lift and taken to the top.

The house was new and I could smell some ghee,
I was pulled into it and then set free.
They fed me water and treated me like a queen bee.
Ah! Only then did I realize that they wanted me to pee!

I can never understand these beings, humans
They claim that they have lot of acumen
But ask a captive Cow it to pass urine
in a new house and call it a house warming ceremony.

When all I could see is you,
In everyone who passes by,
With everything so blue
Without you in my eye,
I hope I could forget you,
And it’s as easy to say bye.

In the busiest of crowds, I am a loner,
In the loneliness left by you.
All that remained of me is a dreamer
Because, it’s in dreams where I could see you.
Ah! They say that the grass on the other side is greener
But to me, with out you every side is blue.

When the parks we walked through
Refuse to recognize me without you
When the love so deep and thorough
Chooses to leave me and go
How to tell you what I am going through
Neither could my wet eyes search you.

And yet, you keep saying that it’s the fact,
But it is so hard to believe,
That whatever happened is just past,
And that you have to leave.
My heart, how can I say to it
That there is no point to grieve.

He chose to be in the park in this weather
he called her too, of course he needs a partner.
He waited on the bench in a corner,
as she grew prettier
with make-up, after each passing hour.

Finally, she arrived, the ducky
he looked at her and said, Ah! I am so lucky
her eyes made diamonds jealous with their sparkle
and her hair reminded the darkness of jungle
with each step teaching lessons to grace
she headed towards him for a tight embrace
he took her in his arms, and looked in her eyes
and when he did that, he knew he found his solace.

With weather so great and mood so sweet
they went around the park for a tête-à-tête
When they are done with the walk
and when there was nothing to talk
she was tired, she laid her head on his shoulder
I wanna sleep, will you sing me a lullaby? she wondered

He knew what to do, he sat down on the floor
and wanted to make her sleep until she snore.
He started to sing, with his voice so sweet
it was heaven for her and she felt so great.

As she was sleeping, he requested the clouds not to thunder
but just to pass away and make her wonder.
He asked the cuckoo to sing along with him
as he wanted to fulfil his darling’s whim
He was then happy to find her asleep in his lap
only to find the angry eyes of a cop
The cop threw the lathi and blew the whistle
and they both started running to avoid the tussle.